Grrrr

OMG I just have to get this off my chest. I am sick and tired of being an excuse in peoples lives. All I have ever wanted is to feel important and that for just once I really mattered. I have literally made so many peoples lives hell since the day I was born. I am an excuse for them to feel better about who they are and how they act towards me. I am now going to accept all that fault, cried about it and now I will never let myself cry again. Crying is a healthy emotion for everyone but me. It makes me feel and I just want to be numb from now on. My children deserve to have someone who isnt such a loser but I will never give up on them. I guess what my conclusion is, is that I am not going to let people make me feel any worse than they already do. I am as low as I want to go and I have blame in this too and I do accept that blame.