My Fear

Today I know you went to your parents for the day and this is a huge fear for me. I know how they feel and I know they have a ton of influence on you. I was really sure that it would end with a phone call from you on your way home telling me you never want to speak to me again. I was in shock when you called and that didnt happen. I guess I am waiting for it to actually happen. I have no doubt that it will happen, just when it does happen. I am preparing myself for it in the long scheme of things. I know it will happen again I just dont know the when yet. Yes I know I am waiting for the other shoe to drop but I feel like a skittish dog in a thunder storm. I know the lightening and thunder will happen just not before it does.