Serious

I just want you to know I was very serious when I said I dont want you to think you need to take care of me. I like to be as independent as possible and I am dependent enough right now. I absolutely hate the fact that I have to live where I do but until I get the money I need I cant change that fact. It is however my top priority when I do get my disbursement. 


I just want to date and see what happens and where we go. I think I am not a first choice and that I am not the perfect one for you. I dont know that I am a good fit for any man actually. Im still trying to be someone I know in my heart I am not. I know that I want someone to look at me and see the real me, the person I do know that I am. 


I know the point where I am in right now. I know that I dont require people to make me, me. I dont need anyone or anymore crap. I was honest with you about my mom and my dad and you can see how I have basically deleted them from my life. I will not allow them to continue to make me feel worse about who I am than I have my entire life. If I have to be alone forever then thats the way it has to be.