Ok this is entitled so because I am more than confused now. I have a few issues with the whole Shannon thing. I guess they decided to not see each other awhile ago. Yet they still text each other back and forth? He said Thursday that after he mowed his parents lawn she sent him several text messages. He responded to them but also said he felt like she was stalking him. She mentioned seeing him when he says she didnt even know where his parents lived so how could she have known where he was and what he was doing unless he lied to me and told her where he was going to be that day and what exactly he would be doing. Maybe I still have some severe trust issues.
I know he says he told her he was with me and that she said good luck and that she would always love him. Yet he says they were never serious? None of this makes sense in my head and I feel like there are pieces missing that I dont fully see. There is also the fact that for some reason her name comes up an awful lot. Is he really over her? Am I a rebound for him?
I need simple assurances, I need to know that this is not going to be a huge mistake for me again. I need to not be looking for everything to just feel wrong. I dont feel worthy of anything anymore. I just feel like I am roaming around the world alone and lost. I want to know that Im not a fool and that I actually matter to someone.
Never mind I should just shut up and get over it.
No comments:
Post a Comment